He breaks through

I woke up this morning and realized with all the moving and transition, I haven’t updated this in a while. Oops.

I was reading Psalm 30 this morning, (passion translation) and I am struck by a portion of the verses that I sometimes resonate with more than I should. David said, “But then suddenly, you hid your face from me. I was panic-stricken and became so depressed.”(v.6-7)

How often does this happen to me? Not that often, but it does happen. So what is one to do when one feels that God has hidden His face? For me it’s not a nice feeling. Yet it is an excellent signal that perhaps somewhere along the way I forgot to rest in Him. Personally, I’ve been going through so much transition that my body and mind have been programed to the default setting of ‘do.’ And I get here and want to keep ‘doing’. And He simply says to me, “Be. Be in Me. Enjoy me. I know all the things that are running through your brain. I know you need a job, a way to pay your bills and achieve all the things I have put in your heart. Right now, this moment, just be.” How often is it that I think God has turned His face from me, when in actuality it is my posture that has changed? It is I who have somehow looked away to stare at all the little distractions, (which are often valid and legitimate concerns). It seems contrary to thought and logic that the way to handle all the cares and responsibilities of my life is to stop looking at those things and just spend time looking at Him, being with Him.

As I read further through the Psalm, I come to my favorite picture of my Father. “Then He broke through and transformed all my wailing into a whirling dance of ecstatic praise! He has torn the veil and lifted from me the sad heaviness of mourning. He wrapped me in the glory-garments of gladness.” (v.11) What makes me most happy in reading this verse, is that He breaks through. He is never holding Himself far from me, rather He waged a war and won, so that I might stand and live and rest with Him in victory. His victory. So when I encounter the lies that have set themselves up against His truth, like dry twigs of little substance the lies burn away in the fire of His presence.

Yeah, that was my morning this morning. And I fully anticipate that it’s just going to get better and better. I have arrived safely at my destination and am settled in well. I will attempt to secure employment today, so all of you who see this, please pray for me. I promise to be better about posting here, so for everyone who has asked for updates, please just check in here.